one + one + one = one?

in the bible,
a supposed trinity is hinted at,
but in no verse-
and please correct me if i'm mistaken-
is an actual trinity presented
or mentioned.
and at the very least,
the word trinity just doesn't
seem to show up.

it certainly has complicated things,
especially for those new to the faith.
and in truth, i'd wager that there are
many folks that have been believers
for their entire lives, who don't
grasp the concept themselves,
but would never admit it.

i'll be honest- this has been a major
stumbling point for me with
christianity. it's freaking confusing
to think of god as one, but with three
characters that comprise one god-
all co-dependent on one another,
but all collectively resembling one god.
huh?

so, let me get this straight:
god= father + jesus + holy spirit.
but the three are not separate from one
another, they are all one god.

...........

in the midst of the confusion, there's
always a handful of well-meaning
people in the church who assure that
"it's okay if i don't understand it now-
but that i will someday, when i get to heaven."
but, that's not good enough for me.
if this is, in fact, the way that god is
and has presented himself to humanity,
shouldn't this be a basic and simple
principle to grasp- and one that would
follow some sort of easy to follow logic?

i wonder, how many of us out there
actually believe this principle,
or are afraid of questioning it, because to
question would be seen as doubting-
and doubting would mean your faith is lacking-
and that simply is unacceptable.

trinity. the "godhead, three in one".
in the midst of transcribing the great
theology that is the bible, one of the
apostles really missed out on an
opportunity to make this one a
little more clear.