joining you

by alanis morissette

dear darlin',
your mom- my friend-
left a message on my machine
she was frantic,
saying you were talking crazy
that you wanted to do
away with yourself
i guess she thought i'd be
a perfect resort
because we've had this inexplicable connection since our youth
and yes they're in shock,
they are panicked
you and your chronic
them and their drama
you this embarrassment
us in the middle of this delusion

if we were our bodies,
if we were our futures,
if we were our defenses,
i'd be joining you
if we were our culture,
if we were our leaders,
if we were our denials,
i'd be joining you

i remember vividly a day, years ago, we were camping
you knew more than
you thought you should know
you said, "i don't ever want
to be brainwashed"
and you were mind boggling,
you were intense,
you were uncomfortable
in your own skin,
you were thirsty,
but most you were beautiful

if we were our name tags,
if we were our rejections,
if we were our outcomes,
i'd be joining you
if we were our indignities,
if we were our successes,
if we were our emotions,
i'd be joining you

you and i, we're like 4 year olds,
we want to know 'why' and
'how come' about everything
we want to reveal ourselves at will
and speak our minds
and never talk small and be intuitive
and question mightily and find god,
my tortured beacon
we need to find
like-minded companions

if we were their condemnations,
if we were their projections,
if we were our paranoias
i'd be joining you
if we were our incomes
if we were our obsessions
if we were our afflictions
i'd be joining you

we need reflection,
we need a really good memory
feel free to call me a little more often