a conversation from this morning

*disclaimer: some suggestive content*

"i'll tell you what it is that
i don't like about christians.

first off, you have to understand that
i am not, nor ever will be a christian,
but my husband is. and so is my son-
so i try to go to church every so often,
to support them.
but i'll never believe it.

what i can't understand is how
the church that we attend,
so willingly forks over wads of cash
to send a youth pastor,
and a bunch of high school kids-
who really don't have a clue about what they're doing-
to california for 2 weeks,
on an all-expenses-paid 'mission trip' to go help the needy,
and then stop routinely at disneyland
and six flags- all on the church's dime.
think of all of the local people-
single moms and homeless bums in our community-
that could really use that money.
but the church has made it pretty clear that they have a higher emphasis on sending kids to amusement parks, than to help those who
suffer around you.
it just teaches our kids to be selfish,
and no one in the church seems to
give a damn.

or, let me tell you about the time
that my son graduated from a christian high school:
to celebrate graduation
and god's goodness in their lives,
they rented a barn to have a party.
it was chaperoned- the parents played
scrabble downstairs, while their innocent christian children
got piss drunk and snorted cocaine
off the barn floor.
and how did they celebrate god's goodness?-
by lining up their holy boyfriends
along the rusty perimeter of the barn, and by having a blow job competition.
i think that really attested
to god's holiness,
don't you?
and when the parents found out,
they took care of the situation
by opting out to pray
for their troubled teens,
rather than having a conversation
with them about decency,
and what sexual purity is about.
and when i challenged another mom- who was in the basement while her daughter was upstairs,
winning that competition,
her only defense was that
she did pray for her daughter,
and that's all the bible
required her to do.

and now, my son's youth pastor
is brainwashing him!
he is suggesting that he sell his car,
guitar, and laptop to pay
for some ridiculous
christian schooling overseas.
and i don't even really mind him going,
i just want him to get a job first to afford the semester abroad-
and his youth pastor is telling him that
he needs to stand up for his faith
and to defy his parents, because this is
god's plan for his life.
and that jesus wants him to cut off
all ties to anything that hinders him.
i'd like to think that i support my son-
but his church is brainwashing him
to think that i am an enemy of his faith.

and that's why i despise christians."

and i swiftly nodded to her reply
of the question that i never asked.